Happy ICLW!

Happy ICLW! ICLW is how I found so many great blogs and is the reason for the support I have received the last two months.  For those of you new to it, you have found a gold mine.  A little about me:

I started this blog at the end of February following 14 months of TTC and after my 2nd miscarriage.  I lost both pregnancies early (at 6 weeks) after trying for 6 months each time.  The second loss was truly devastating for me and I knew I needed help so reached out to the blogging community.  I had few friends IRL who I'd shared my story with and it was much easier for me to write about what's going on that to talk about it.  After the 2nd loss, I made an appointment with a fertility specialist and got a Recurrent Pregnancy Loss (RPL) workup that included a history and physical, labwork, semen analysis, and an HSG.  All of our results came back normal, which was bittersweet.  Luckily, and totally unexpectedly, I became pregnant the cycle following my last miscarriage (last week)!  So, I'm now starting a new journey of pregnancy number three.  They say it's a charm, right?

So, I made a mistake on my last post. My beta was 453 at 16 DPO (not 15).  My beta yesterday at 19 DPO was 1503.  That's a doubling time of 44 hours.  I know that normal is 24-72 hours, so I'm right in the middle.  Of course, I'd be happier if the number were closer to the 24 hour, but it's probably fine, right?  The nurse who called said it was "a good rise".  I am to keep taking my prenatal and progesterone suppository.  Done.  My progesterone yesterday was 23.5 up from 17.  I think this is good?  I asked her and told her I'd only taken 3 of the suppositories with that lab and she told me that the suppositories don't enter the bloodstream, so aren't reflected in that number.  I think it's good news that my progesterone is going up too, right?  I'm just nervous I guess.  With my last pregnancy, my doubling time was also 44 hours, but the numbers were smaller (85 at 15DPO and 777 at 20 DPO).  There's such a range of "ok" numbers that I'm not sure what to think.  I'll have labs drawn again Monday and Thursday of next week. Assuming those go ok, I'll have an US the following week.  Pretty cool.

I feel kind of crappy today.  I haven't been eating well, but healthy food has just not sounded appetizing at all to me. I feel guilty about it and need to make a better effort now.  I'm also so so tired.  But, I've been off, so have been able to take naps.  I work the next four days, so am going to have to plow through.  I've been slightly nauseous a few days, but not really today.  I need to just stop over analyzing and understand that today all is well.  I'm doing all I can and what will be, will be.

Thanks for reading.  Happy holiday weekend.