So, yesterday was our meeting with the RE to have an US and to go over all of our test results in the workup for RPL. As expected, everything is normal. I was both happy and disappointed that this was the case. I'm happy that nothing is wrong, although I was really hoping for there to be something small wrong that we could easily fix; therefore, providing a reason for my two miscarriages and some assurance that the next time is less likely. Instead, I still have no answers and have a higher risk of miscarrying again. Although, eventually, with enough pregnancies, I'll have a baby. Yeah statistics. It was very emotional. The MD is amazing! He is so kind and compassionate. He treats us like we're competent but explains anything we need him to. He answers our questions and is not pushy at all. He acts as if he has all the time in the world for us and we're not even doing expensive procedures! I do love him.
After we got the results we talked about perhaps starting Clomid. The MD in NO way pushed us towards it, just offered it if we wanted. D and I had many questions and he was patient and answered them all. I had guessed that we would have this option and spoke to D about it on the ride to the center. It may be good for us because it will stimulate a good strong egg (or 2), boosts the progesterone, and we know almost certainly when I will ovulate so sex can be timed better. Even though all my tests were "normal" I'm concerned that I have a progesterone issue after I get pregnant. Also, each time we've gotten pregnant it's taken us 6 months. With Clomid, it could happen faster. I'm more of a "doer" and my husband is more of a "nothing's wrong, nothing needs to be fixed" kind of guy. So, we're still discussing the next step. After we went over all the risks and side effects, D felt more comfortable with it. So, we can decide whenever. If we aren't pregnant this cycle (not feeling like we are, by the way) we can just call. If we don't that's fine too. We can call when/if we ever want it. Then, with the next +HPT we can call and they'll follow us. Any thoughts about trying clomid?
I'm disappointed that we don't have answers but happy that nothing serious is wrong with me. I do know and feel confident that I will eventually get pregnant and stay that way. I'm a control freak and this is completely out of my hands, which has been hard. I do feel lucky and know that my situation could be much much worse. I know to many of you I sound like a whiner and need to buck up and go on. However, taking so long to get pregnant and then miscarrying twice has dealt a serious blow to my self-esteem and happiness. Although, right now I'm in a good place. I'm trying to reconnect with me and relearn the interests I had before TTC became all-consuming. I mean, what else is there to do during the two week wait?